don’t be too clingy
don’t be such a ‘girl’
be a woman
but be hairless like a child
don’t wear skimpy outfits
don’t be such a ‘slut’
but take it off when i ask
don’t assert yourself
don’t be such a ‘bitch’
be nice to me
but don’t be a fucking doormat
don’t be ignorant
don’t be such a ‘bimbo’
but don’t argue your opinion with me
don’t wear make-up ever
don’t be so ‘insecure’
but don’t complain if i don’t like it
I like drinking coffee alone, and reading alone.
I like riding the bus alone, and walking home alone.
It gives me time to think, and set my mind free.
I like eating alone, and listening to music alone.
But when I see a mother with her child, a girl with her lover, or a friend laughing with their best friend, I realize that even though I like being alone, I don’t fancy being lonely. The sky is beautiful, but the people are sad. I just need someone who won’t run away.
Last summer was my crazy adventure/drunken/make out with everyone summer. This year, as summer gets closer I’m feeling like I’ve lost myself somewhere. I need to take a break and rediscover myself. Less booze and no boys. More self improvement and getting in touch with my passions.
This year has been a difficult one for me, though it might not seem like it has, I’ve been struggling with some things on the inside and I know I’m never going to be able to get past certain things if I keep doing the things that are holding me back.